So, today started out pretty crappy....and my attitude was pretty crappy right along with it. The baby woke up at 6am (my alarm was set for 6:15)....I was feeling rushed because I was scheduled to work at the hospital today (I don't normally do this during the week) and the majority of my morning was either nursing the baby or trying to get her back to sleep.....and to top it off, I didn't get a shower or breakfast (lack of food always makes me cranky). So, I was headed to work (when all I want to do is not go to work and stay home with my girls)....with a bad attitude and an empty stomach.
Man, quite a morning not filled with praise for my Creator. No praise to Him for giving me another day to wake up to the sweet faces of my husband and girls...no praise that I got to sleep in a bed with a roof over my head....no praise that even though I missed breakfast, I would get a meal today....no praise that I have a job and my family has more than we need. Wow...my attitude needed serious adjusting this morning! It often makes me embarrassed how self-righteous I can be.
My day was pretty much non-stop at work....but, (one of the reasons I'm thankful I have the career I do) since I work with people who are having physical issues...God constantly uses this to remind me of all the blessings in my life. And, miraculously (and if you know me, you know this was a miracle) I wasn't hungry when I got to work. I can get so hungry sometimes, that it's all I can think about. I am praising God today, that He kept my stomach feeling full so I could stay focused with my patients.
I got home just as it was time to get dinner started....and then it was a bit of family time....then it was bathtime for MK....then it was "late night snack" time for SJ....and bedtime for both girls. Then, I got started on some laundry. And, there's still a dirty kitchen waiting to be cleaned up. Life is hectic....today was definitely a hectic day. But, God has been pulling at my heart all day....I could feel Him. He's been waiting for me to clear a spot in my day to meet with Him.
I'm sorry, Lord, that I've waited until the end of my day. You still provided for my needs - You still showed faithful to Your promises to care for me as Your child, even though I've been so consumed with what's on my schedule that I've pushed you to the end of the list.
I will resume reading "Future Grace" tomorrow, but tonight, I am going to reflect on some scriptures that I have written down and stored in a journal in the past. And I am going to pray these scriptures....how powerful it is to pray scripture...to speak back to God His own words!
Psalm 51:10-12
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me."
Ephesians 5:1-2, 5
"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God......For of this you can be sure: no immoral, impure or greedy person - such a man is an idolater - has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God."
Psalm 4:8
"I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety."
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