These have been an exhausting 9 days, since I last posted. (It seriously feels like it has been at least a month since all this sickness/chaos began...when in actuality, it has been 11 days). I should have still posted, but I'm not going to "put on" and be fake....I was tired, and I gave into my fleshly desire to sleep. Both my girls have been sick with strep....and each had one random episode of vomiting.....and then my husband also got strep, followed by a hospital visit a few days ago due to severe upper back pain. It's not so much the "everyone is sick" stuff that is taking it's toll on me....but the "everyone is so needy because they are sick" stuff. I'm being very truthful - I have had way too many moments where I felt like complaining because I wasn't getting to do what I wanted to do....or because I had to put both girls to bed because my hubby didn't feel good enough to help....or because I'm just as tired as everyone else, but someone has to fix everyone some food.....or because I'm tired and I still have to wake up and take care of a crying infant at least once during the night. Did you read how many times the word "I" was used in that run-on sentence??? I, I, I....that's my problem.
Thankfully, the Holy Spirit resides in me...and did cause my heart to feel a pang of guilt when I had all of these selfish thoughts, and I have needed to repent so much this past week. Praise God that His grace and mercy overflows for His children!! And even though trials and just "hard days/weeks" are frustrating....God truly uses those times to draw us nearer to Him....to help us become more dependent on Him.....to help us focus more on Him. When things in life seem the most out of control, that is when I am desperately clinging to Him to figure it all out.
Philippians 4:6 has been on my mind a lot this week...
And have I read any further in my book?? Um...big. fat. no. (insert disappointment in myself here) I have no excuse, I chose sleep. BUT....God has still chosen to work in my life....has still chosen to answer my prayers....has still chosen to love me!!!!!
On a very positive note, a BIG decision has been made in our house....my hubs is going on a mission trip with our church to Thailand in January 2012!!!! So very exciting!!! Can't wait, just can't wait, to see what all God has planned for this trip!!! :)
Tomorrow, I am going to post several tidbits and pieces of scripture from the most recent lesson we did in the Bible study I am a part of.....goooood stuff....need to have it saved for future reference!!
Thankfully, the Holy Spirit resides in me...and did cause my heart to feel a pang of guilt when I had all of these selfish thoughts, and I have needed to repent so much this past week. Praise God that His grace and mercy overflows for His children!! And even though trials and just "hard days/weeks" are frustrating....God truly uses those times to draw us nearer to Him....to help us become more dependent on Him.....to help us focus more on Him. When things in life seem the most out of control, that is when I am desperately clinging to Him to figure it all out.
Philippians 4:6 has been on my mind a lot this week...
And have I read any further in my book?? Um...big. fat. no. (insert disappointment in myself here) I have no excuse, I chose sleep. BUT....God has still chosen to work in my life....has still chosen to answer my prayers....has still chosen to love me!!!!!
On a very positive note, a BIG decision has been made in our house....my hubs is going on a mission trip with our church to Thailand in January 2012!!!! So very exciting!!! Can't wait, just can't wait, to see what all God has planned for this trip!!! :)
Tomorrow, I am going to post several tidbits and pieces of scripture from the most recent lesson we did in the Bible study I am a part of.....goooood stuff....need to have it saved for future reference!!
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